Mid-June thoughts
6 months past really quickly... In a glance, so many things happened - be it good or bad. Forged new friendships; earning some recognition at work; a steep learning curve at work. Yet at the same time, some major family problems, insecurity and trust issues surfaced yet again. Finally learnt how to start trusting new people I just met and slowly letting them into my fortress. Some have managed to completely break down my fortress, while others are probably still not there yet. Every time when I'm about to fully trust someone again, their actions and behavior forces me to reconsider whether I'm making the right choice or not. It is not easy to trust someone and then suddenly one day, having that trust broken. Sometimes, I also wonder how I stand in importance to someone - how much of a priority I am, how much effort a person is willing to make for me no matter how tough the circumstance is... It's hard to be understanding when you put yourself first and yet, yo